He was then in the new kennel for the week so he didnt have to be involved in the stress of moving day. I just kept planning these grand things for her future. We walked one night that first week he was gone..just one. I love reading these comments and having everyone ignore a major thing you brought up; you have anger issues. We fought hard to keep Tiny inside the first couple weeks. Mum had an accident and has been in hospital with a broken hip, so Id been taking care of Muffin. Your story has taken me right back to that moment, and brought tears to my eyes. How did you love and take care of your pet? Good luck, You need to get a grip before this becomes your life. I tried honking the horn to get another truck drivers attention. Im such an idiot. All i can think of is i killed my baby. We aim to keep this a safe space. I lied to my family and made them pay more than 1000$ in treatment for him till this day , and it seems itll be more if we want him to walk properly again. It happens that instead of just tapping him in the ass and letting him go the rest of the way I accidentally use too much force and make him do a 180 around his leg and he falls on his back and head. Even the most innocent pet ownersfeel guilt over a pets death. . So many people don't care about animals and they live long lives to be abused, then these loved animals have misfortunate accidents. Another guilt i didnt let him sleep with me in my bed instead i made his bed near me and the next morning at 4:30am i heard him make sound i checked and he took his last breath i cried till 8am then finally burried him it was the most painful moment of my life he was stiff cold my baby i dont know anything but i miss him i love him and i regret what i did. After the recording I removed . What if I'm searching for hours and can't find him at all; I only got him a month ago and I can't even assure that he won't run away?! Losing a friend sucks. Did he wonder where we were, why we didnt look for him more? I knew he was scared of people, elevator but I still tried to take him from the elevator. Darling Lolly, I love you so much. Thankfully, Hannah (Florios sister) is both a lovebug and an attention hog. It doesn't seem like "oh I get mad soemtimes"; but more like "I have a literally problem with my brain, or whatever, and it makes me unable to control my anger.". I feel so sick with grief and that its my fault my cat died. We adopted him 6 months ago, and we loved him so much. I saw improvement on the increased dose. After some moments she appeared more lucid. We'll listen, and if you want, we'll talk. He was physically not much active and several times got sick and weak. - iKlsR. We came home from somewhere and here it came following her, my wife stumbled and stepped on that poor little kitten. I was worried that I wouldnt be able to get her in her carry-case to get her to the hospital the next day, and if she was super-hungry I could put her food bowl in there with some of her favourite food and shed go inside. We could of done, we had unpacked most things by the Thursday he could of settled in with us then! This was no accident either. I did think twice about it before I put her to bed for the night, and ran it past my wife, but she said to me shell be fine. I went there with a tiny bit of apple along with raspberries that was Lollys favourite. Animals cant always communicate their physical health;pet ownerscant see inside their bodies and brains. I left and walked home. I said we need to prepare ourselves for the worse. I needed to get a creep away he kept coming to my house and throwing rocks at window or banging on the door, my neighbors complained too. Well I did that for months but then a lot of stuff happened in between time and I slacked on and off. Accidents happen but it's still sad when you care about them. The Animal Legal Defense Fund is a 501(c)(3) nonprofit organization. It was so careless, but we just wanted to give him a chance to really run. My Dog Killed my Other dog - Part 1. I am so sorry I didnt bring him in. Today, I want to shed some light on the problem and offer tips on preventing deaths. Sleep tight. so this saturday i came home to a messed up house and i snapped. Our EIN number is 94-2681680. So a couple of days ago, I put an e collar on her to prevent her from digging at it. It only took the site of his black fur and and his beautiful little feet to know it was him. but the guilt kept eating me up as I KNEW she wasnt ready yet. It was sunday , afternoon , I have 5 dogs , Im stupid. i was a horrible owner but i truly loved my lil guy. I cant stop thinking about my sweet boy, dreaming that I could once again stuff my face into his fluffy fur and for one moment in the day all of my troubles would disappear. He was a member of the family; we'd had him . You dont grasp the power your words have. We aim to keep this a safe space. Dealing with guilt may be a bit lighter if you know you wouldve acted differently if you had the chance. So I gave him to my mom (who I take care of) and said mom we just have to let him pass it and go through it, its happened before, she said to me that he was going to die and my dumb self said no because I didnt think so. I went after her as she collapsed to the ground. But I took him back again to the elevator this time he ran so fast and hard he when to the service pipeline area. How could I put my sweet baby in harms way!? The most important thing to remember is that you did NOT purposely cause your pets death. I feel like weve let him down, and we didnt fully appreciate how stressful this situation may have been for him. They took 3 but would not take the 4th one. I wish. I decided at her age not to put her little body through all that and chose euthanasia instead. We waited in all day for the phone call. I screamed the neighbourhood down. How are you doing and how can you help us with advice. They had put him in a black garbage bag out in their driveway. I miss you . I washed it all out and and lined it with bath towels. I am here today because my sweet kitten Zoe died today. It was the only way of loving her I had. I didnt tell the vet about starving Lolly overnight. We rushed to the hospitals but they were closed. Your child won't understand for a long time so don't take that personal. I was crying, exhausted, my adrenaline teetering. She laid down but refused to get up and appeared suddenly lethargic. We live in an apartment at 14th floor. - JoshDM. I didnt think my friends dog would viciously kill my beloved baby girl Raiderette I knew they would not be best friends but this dog mauled my baby and I couldnt stop it. Ive had an unhealthy attachment to her for so long and have felt so guilty not being around her for a while. She had her usual awareness, a few meows in protest of the day. The doc gave her a shot of antibiotic and we brought her back home. But still somehow I didnt live up to my plans for her. But also, the sitter said she was still warm when they found her so it was likely that morning and not during the night. I said shed had plenty to eat. Ha! so as i come home sometimes hes out out setup, which was a gated area in the house, and hes pissed and shitted everywhere and he liked to chew on the wall borders. Were going to take a trip out of town, you and mama and me. Because I took him out. I wanted so much to save her and give her all the love she hadnt had until the day I found her. Love at first site. i feel like a soulless vessel. all he wanted was to be loved and i failed him in the worst way. My wife was in the living room. I wake up and go to bed crying. Thank you. Im here because of the loss of our 8 year old family German shepherd. After I cleaned it she was dry heaving again, then began to stagger and breathe very rapidly. There was nothing to lead me to believe that she had any serious underlying disease. I remember his voice and face. Hell, I just came back from fetching my dog in our neighbourhood after he managed to slip out of his collar during breakfast (I have to keep him leashed during feeding because our yard isn't fenced in yet, unfortunately). Poor poor Lamont. I quickly laid her on the bed and realized she wasnt breathing. I put my finger through the mesh to stroke her ears. If all of that was awfull to you this is the disgusting horrible part: I try to push one of my dogs with my feet to his home , idk why , he wasnt going by my command . I love the book because it offers both heartwarming stories and practical guidance on grieving the loss of a pet. I thought Id done everything right: all the right vaccinations at the right time, a good habitat at home, clueing myself up on common illnesses and what to look for, how to spot depression, the right food, and finding her the best, most experienced rabbit surgeon I could. Within a week, our older cat was taking naps and snuggling with our new baby. The only difference is we have no consequences from most of our mi. They told us she was dehydrated and her heart rate was very low. His adoption fee is $45. I did not even think about having my cats teeth checked. Fern tries to play with her; theyre working out a dynamic. Six dogs were trapped and taken to Animal Control facilities where they were euthanized. My dad buried him in our field. This was no issue for me. The day before yesterday, I noticed she was stepping in her water and getting in the litter box. (Before you ever have a family of your own, for Gods sake). So, no chance of killing one And even if I did have a pet, I don't reckon I would do something like this with a fellow being..!! Not long after she appeared to regain respiratory function, retrospectively I do not believe the respirations were adequate given her outcome but at the time I saw the chest rise and was hopeful. She always had food in her last year but, water was far between. O-Q Joined 19/06/2019 Posts 2,152 06:04 PM 25/06/2019 ahaha, mistakes happen!-White girl. I was alone, doing active cpr. I eventually noticed that she wasnt eating and looked sick, the gills around her face were receding. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. i cant believe i did that to him. Hi Everyone, I saw a posting about this several months ago but I can't seem to find it. We couldnt get him into his normal kennels, and so had to book him in to a new one it had been recommended by another kennel and great reviews. I took a couple of pics of her which is not unusual as I have over 1,000! My friend said take Honey home for the night. We also experience anticipatory grief, or the feelings of grief while our pet is still living, but we are aware of an . Bella felt so much better. He hopped in the car - he was able to walk, I don't know how and we immediately went to the vet. I know this is easier said than done and it takes effort to forgive yourself. Ive read these post and I can tell you all genuinely LOVED your pets. Sue August 30, 2022 at 11:03 am . I thought as long as she didnt have an empty tummy shed be fine. Any encouragement is appreciated. I walked around the house calling her to no avail. I watched her eat and drink to be sure that wasnt an issue. If you killed a dog with a knife by accident, unpleasant events are waiting for the dreamer and his family. I stopped handling her. There was litter caked on her feet and also in the water dish. I feel sick when I think about it and how she passed in my husbands arms. How he cried for help when I couldnt do anything. I feel like I failed him and he trusted me; he was like my little brother that I couldnt have. That's the most inspirational thing I have read all day. He was a member of the family; we'd had him since he was a puppy and he never spent a moment without us - from the moment he woke up till we slept, he was by our side. If I feel like this, then I can only imagine how people feel when children are involved. I had errands to run and I strapped my daughter into her car seat and pulled my vehicle out of the garage. But I dont blame her neither, since its COVID and I think she was also wary of going in at times when our sitter was already intending to. Not recognizing that your Yorkie, cockapoo, or Siamese cat was ill doesnt mean that you werent paying attention or taking good care of him or her! In some cases, dog trainers may find that there is too big of a liability and won't work with your dog as a result. She was such a good cat and theres an empty space in my heart without her. I saw her slowing down in the last 6 months. Its our fault for choosing to leave him there. I did not know what to do with her in this condition. I put him in a box and took him home. I hit every wall in my house and blame myself for him dying! I am at fault for my 12 year old golden retrievers passing. I saw his last minute when he peed and pooped himself. He was patient, sweet, loving, loyal, and had a load of personality. I never saw her with that ununsteadiness, rapid breathing, or weakness. Guys I slipped I swear!IMPORTANT LINKS:Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/loganboisvertVOD Channel: https://bit.ly/3rVIAIdClip Channel: https://bit.ly/3CAVksQDi. I intended to take her to the vet soon regarding the legs and for thyroid re-check since her appetite was increasing. I can't imagine what it must feel like to you now, even after 5 years. None of it would have happened if the vet was not so complacent and careless. It keeps popping up..his voice, his face at the time when he cried for help. What I notice was that both of them were trying to rape / compete for sex with the female puppy , they were fighting eachother and when I saw that I got really mad. Hes with me for 7 months i still remember the day i got him he was a cute kitten but was very afraid slowly he learned his name and so many things Id everything to keep him well. That dog didnt do anything wrong, you did. I said sorry to Lolly out loud, for so many things. I have 3 cats and one of the other cats was sick during last week and I gave him specilly whatever he likes to encouraged him to eat. Theres a reason why animal cruelty is treated as a gateway into really criminally violent behavior towards humans, you know? I fed on the counter like I did my other Yorkie. The shame and guilt are overwhelming. Tuesday morning also he didnt come to our room and I found that he was sitting near the neighborhood garden. Why not give the family another chance to show another dog the same kind of love Kion received? 1 lbs and 10 oz. He said shes going love. This is one of the worst things I have ever experienced. We all make mistakes, gosh some huge, I mean posdible life altering mistakes. Now , for the last 3 days I have been visiting him and it turns out he cant walk properly . I know that supervision is the answer for future contact with the rest of our pets, but I want to know how to deal with the fact that she actually killed something, even though it was (I hope) an accident.